Give It Your All

I haven't changed my background music in ages.
Maybe even eons.
My soul thirsts for new background music!

Scientologists.
Are very.
Weird.

They're god or something is named Xenu,
And like 75,000,000 years ago,
He was a part of the "Galactic Confederation",
And he made people,
Then he killed those people and made new people for no reason.

What the hell?

So anyway, I didn't go to that show thingee.
And I hope no one's mad at me,
Because I said I would go,
And Trish and Mallory know that I was very close to going,
But it just got too complicated.

That's my main excuse for everything.
It was too complicated.
I need to start rebelling or something.
Maybe I'll take Trish's advice and grow some balls.

I don't understand religion.
I just don't understand how someone can have such a strong faith in something they know little to nothing about.
I'm not an atheist!!!
I believe in God!
But all these stupid doubts and questions I have,
That a person who is truly dedicated to their religion isn't supposed to have,
They just keep plaguing me and it's uncool.
I really wish I had faith.
I used to have faith, but then I lost it.
I don't know why I lost it.
Nothing uberdramatic happened to me to cause me to lose it,
Like on the movie Saved!
But I just lost it, and sometimes I miss it, but I don't want it to come back.

Do you understand?
Nah, you probably don't.
I don't even understand it.

I can't explain it, but I have this feeling that tomorrow will be hell.
On the brightside of things, I talked to Mike Sabo today!
I HAVEN'T TALKED TO HIM SINCE HE LEFT!
DO YOU UNDERSTAND HOW BIG A DEAL THIS IS?!

And I talked to Christian.
And David.
So all I need to talk to is Autumn, cause I talked to Angel yesterday.

Then I'll be a happy camper.

Currently Listening Apologies to the Queen Mary By Wolf Parade see related

I'm Sorry I Haunted Your Dreams

Ewwwwwwwwwww.
I imagined Ms. Hicks with makeup.
Ewwwwwwwwwww.

What does is it today?
Feels like a Tuesday.
And you know what that means!
FAMILY GUY!!!!
I was watching the preview,
And Chris was like,
"Mom, are we there, yet?"
Lois says,
"No."
"Mom, are we there, yet?"
"No."
"Mom, are we there, yet?"
"Yes."
"LIAR!!!!

Genius.
Simply genius.
So anywhonow, on Saturday, it's the big show thing for Tuberculosis kids in North Korea.
Ewwwwwwwwwww.
North Korea.
But anyway, I have to support the kids.
So I bought a ticket.
I also wanna see mis amigos Joshiee-Wa, Colton, Mike, and Skye play.
That should be pretty cool.
SOMEONE KOREAN!!!!
I need someone Korean to help me with the subway.
And Mallory needs help, too.
And so does Ashley.
But Hana can't help us out, cause she has to get ready for prom.
GAARRRRR!
That's not Narnia, man.
We might have to end up taking a taxi there.
Totally.
Not.
Narnia.

Today after school, I hung out with Ashley.
We ran into Hana and Chong at the shopette,
And Hana was like,
"YOU HAVE A LIFE?!"
To answer your question,
Yes, Hana, I have a few friends outside of our little group.

I just don't hang out with them.

Currently Reading The Mansion (Vintage) By William Faulkner see related

Religion Never Happened

And Spring Break is finished.
But you know what?
I don't feel like talking about the last half of it,
But you know what?
I will.

Thursday.
I went to Seoul Land with my....dare I say it....church.
And it was okay, I guess.
It was freezing cold and it was the middle of friggin' April.
But you know what made my day?
Out of all the black people there, including me
A group of nice little Korean girls chose me.
ME!
UNATTRACTIVE BOY!!!
But yes, they chose me to take pictures with,
And since they were fighting over who got to hold my arm,
I am the most attractive kid at my church.

Skipping Friday.
Saturday.
Skipping Saturday afternoon.
Went to the Amplify concert.
It was okay, I guess.
It could've been a lot better, but it was a Christian event.
*SIGH*
I need a real concert to go to.
One where I could've really skanked.

SKANKS WHO SKANK!!!!!
Yeah.

But anyway, there was this girl,
She was like massive punk and looked like Dara,
Only she really needed braces.
Anyway, she can dance very well.
Yes, Hana and Josh!!!
I can say well!!!
Yeah, some stuff happened after the concert.
I wasn't exactly around to see it.
But it happened.

Everyone's a whore.

Uh-huh, nothing much for Sunday.
It was Easter.
I mean.......excuuuuuuuuse me, mother.
Resurrection Sunday, because Easter is a pagan holiday.

Monday and Tuesday aren't special.
Except that I got my KINGDOM HEARTS 2!!!!!!!!
FINALLY!!!
After 2 long years of waiting, I finally have it.
And you know what?
It's awesomexXxcore.
Anthony, you're a nerd.
Anthony, you need to stop talking in third person like this.

Hey, so we finally found out where we're going.
FT. LEWIS-------Washington
Beginning of August.

Pros:
-Concerts, concerts, and more concerts
-Shows, shows, and more shows
-Hipsters, hipsters, and more hipsters
-A place where the language is primarily English

Cons:
-Very cold
-Very rainy
-A place where the language is primarily English

Currently Listening The Life Pursuit By Belle & Sebastian see related

To Be Myself Completely

Okay, so about 65% of spring break is done.
Boy, what a spring break this was.

Okay, so it all starts with Friday.
Tina tells me she hasn't been home for a few days,
And she doesn't plan on going home for a few days,
And she has Ericka and Paola lying for her,
And she was getting people in trouble.
That's when I started worrying.
I hung out with Richard and Luis.
Yeah, that's right.
I hung out with two six graders.
My cool points are just flying out the window.
Anyway, yeah, I hung out with Satan and Gordo Gringo,
And I watched them skateboard their little hearts out.
Then that night, we went to the shoppette and ran into Kelsey and Sara,
And we all went to go see the film The Ringer.
GOD!!!!
Whoever made that film has absolutely no soul.
It makes fun of mentally challenged people.
I won't call them retards, because that's politically incorrect
And mean.
The Ringer is one of those films that you don't want to laugh at,
Cause you know it's wrong,
But you just can't help it,
And you laugh,
And you feel like a bad person.

Now Saturday.
Once again, I hung out with Luis.
This time, though, there also involved Houston and his friend Chris.
Supercool Anthony watched them all skateboard for a long-ass time.
Chris sprained his ankle and it swolled up to the size of an apple.
It was like a different kind of disgusting.
After a while, Luis and I went to the Dragon and ran into Ginny and Joe and Sean Heffernan,
Who also hasn't been home in a while and is staying with the same person as Tina.
We went to the jam hut and had some fun with the guitar and karaoke.
Ginny left, and the three of us (1 freshman, 2 sixth graders)
Went to the shoppette and, thank God, ran into some high-schoolers.
Paola, Alan, Ericka, Sean Heffernan, Kim, and Josh B.
Tina's mom shows up and is like,
"Have you seen my daughter? Do you know where she is?"
And I knew exactly where she was.
But I lied to the poor woman's face and said I didn't.
I felt so bad.
Crazy-ass Sean Heffernan started screaming at Tina's mom saying,
"YOU DROVE TINA AWAY!!!" and all this other stuff to her,
And he had absolutely NO right to scream at her like that,
And Tina's mom started crying and the whole experience was just surreal.

I got a tab bit mad at Tina for causing all this.
But I forgave her on Sunday when I saw her at club.
Oh, by the way.
Mallory hates Tina, now.

Onward to Monday.
It began my crappy church stuff that my mom made me do.
Afterwards, I went to the shoppette to meet up with Josh J.
Who shows up?
Mallory and Trish, of whom I hadn't seen since Thursday.
That was the bomb.
Josh shows up.
Then Mike and Colton showed up, and the six of us chilled for a bit.
Then Josh and I went to Itaewon so he could buy new shoes,
And twice, we ran into Hana and Chong.
That was cool.
Oh, and Coco rode by in a taxi and screamed at us.
Then later that night I crashed at Josh's house.
We had a Family Guy marathon, and jammed.
Josh played guitar, I played drums.
Only, I can't play actual drums and he doesn't have actual drums,
But I do have supa doopa rhythm.
So I played some pots and pans.
And if I ever make a band, it will be called
Look, the Moon!
And the album will be called
The Mad Dash of Triumph.
Yeah, that's super NARNIA, isn't it, Hana?

Tuesday.
I leave Josh's house super early to get to my church crap thing.
And I'm sooooooo tired cause I got like two, maybe three hours of sleep.
Tee-hee.
A few weeks ago, I wrote a poem called Two, Maybe Three.
Well, anyway, I went to my church thing, and I was seriously spacing out.
I was so tired, but I couldn't sleep because it'd seem so rude to my pastor.
So once I got home, I passed out and slept from like 1 to 5.
It was possibly THE greatest nap ever.
So then I get up and get on the computer,
And learn that Josh Brake's dad is sending him back to the states,
Cause of all this crap Josh is doing and it's so sad.
Cause Josh is leaving THIS WEEK!!!
Man, it's so sad.

Today.
Last time for the church crap thingee.
I won $20 for having the best speech on praying for my country.
YAY!!!!!!
So after the thing I went to the PX with Luis.
I bought the Belle and Sebastain CD, a set of headphones, a coke, and a bean burrito.
All of it was worth every penny.
After that, Luis and I wandered around post alone for hours.
Possibly the most pointless thing the two of us have ever done,
And we do quite a bit of pointless things.

Yeah, and that's my spring break so far.
Tomorrow, I'm going to Seoul Land with my crappy church.
Friday, I don't know what I'm doing.
Saturday, we're all going to Sinchon and then to the Amplify concert.

Hey, what ever happened to Sean Heffernan?